Breaking Point
- By Tracy Ames
- Published July 6, 2011
Tracy Ames
Mrs. Ames is an international bestselling author of interracial erotic fiction and a former columnist for several newsletters and magazines.
A native of the San Francisco Bay Area, Tracy currently split time between Greenwich CT & New York City with her husband, children and a host of pets.
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I’ve been exceedingly busy. Yeah, I’m always busy but lately it’s gotten to a breaking point.
Putting the events into a snazzy post would take all day so I’ll give it to you in bullet form:
- 50Mil’s aunt, Momma Ames twin sister, is ill so being the only daughter-in-law I’m expected to lend a hand. Mind you, she lives in Newport and I’m in Alabama…which bring us to this…
- I’m caring for my Grandma who has Alzheimer’s. That said, we’ve moved our three ring circle to the south.
- BC’s siblings (he thinks they’re his cousins) and my nieces and nephews are here until next week. Thank God for summer school!
- I turned down two commissioned editorial pieces due to lack of time and inclination.
- “Skins” has been added to Rants & Rambles. I’ll add “Secret Diary of a Call Girl” and “Two Pints of Lager…” later in the week. Requests are welcomed.
- Yesterday was BC’s first day at camp. After peeling him away from my leg and promising to pick him up midday, he was fine.
- Eva is two weeks into her summer job. She’s enjoying herself. Her dad is having panic attacks.
- I lost ten pounds. 50Mil says I look emaciated which I’m inclined to agree. Gotta put on some weight!
There’s more but I can’t keep my eyes open one second longer. I’ll fill you in tomorrow. :)
Putting the events into a snazzy post would take all day so I’ll give it to you in bullet form:
- 50Mil’s aunt, Momma Ames twin sister, is ill so being the only daughter-in-law I’m expected to lend a hand. Mind you, she lives in Newport and I’m in Alabama…which bring us to this…
- I’m caring for my Grandma who has Alzheimer’s. That said, we’ve moved our three ring circle to the south.
- BC’s siblings (he thinks they’re his cousins) and my nieces and nephews are here until next week. Thank God for summer school!
- I turned down two commissioned editorial pieces due to lack of time and inclination.
- “Skins” has been added to Rants & Rambles. I’ll add “Secret Diary of a Call Girl” and “Two Pints of Lager…” later in the week. Requests are welcomed.
- Yesterday was BC’s first day at camp. After peeling him away from my leg and promising to pick him up midday, he was fine.
- Eva is two weeks into her summer job. She’s enjoying herself. Her dad is having panic attacks.
- I lost ten pounds. 50Mil says I look emaciated which I’m inclined to agree. Gotta put on some weight!
There’s more but I can’t keep my eyes open one second longer. I’ll fill you in tomorrow. :)
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20 Responses to "Breaking Point" 
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 1:25:54 AM CDT
Bless you for taking care of your Grandma, Tracy. My Mom has Dementia. She's a handful, but she's MY handful!
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 2:14:32 AM CDT
Its tough watching them waste away from the pillars of strength they used to be, isn't it? We have a large family so the responsibilities aren't crippling. However, I’m the favorite grandchild so when she kept asking everyone to tell me to come home, it kinda sucked for them.
But I understand why she was so insistent: her mind is going rapidly now. So we’re here….taking it one day at a time and enjoying what time we have left. Have a large family (some nurses and doctors) sure helps. Who knew younger cousins would come in handy! :) We'll be back and forth between Newport and Bama for a while. What happened to my nice relaxing summer in Switzerland!!!?? |
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said this on 14 Jul 2011 6:50:17 AM CDT
Best with this. My granny has dementia too.
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 10:24:36 AM CDT
Man when it rains it pours huh?! Yes having a large family helps, but taking on so many responsibilities can still be crippling so take it easy. I know you won't though. *smh*
I'll be in Alabama in about two weeks visiting family. I originally didn't want to go, but after reading your blog post you just never know how long you or your loved ones will be here. I'm a little more appreciative. Even if you were in Switzerland you wouldn't be able to relax any way knowing that your Grandma was ill. That's just how good people are :) |
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 10:44:31 AM CDT
Cali, you're right of course. I’d never relax knowing my Grandma was ill and asking for me. Why can’t I be mean and selfish? Grrr!!!! Yeah right…that’ll never happen.
BC has given up all pretence of going to camp. He’s staying home with us. To his credit he didn’t cry or act out like some of the other kids his age….the ladies at the camp loved him to death. Sadly, the sentiment wasn’t returned. But he made a couple of friends who'll be coming over this weekend. Yay! More effin' kids! *note the sarcasm* |
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 11:55:18 AM CDT
Tracy and selfish? Oxymoron.
I'm sorry to hear about your grandma. My grandmom died a few weeks ago, so all I can say is enjoy the time you have together. Soak it all up and put it away in that special place in your heart. Also, get all those great recipes, I forgot to ask mine how to make her prized chutney. Drat! Take care of yourself, lady. Try out a few of those recipies Grandma nurtured you with. |
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 12:23:32 PM CDT
We’ve all had a rough go of it lately. You, me, Lydia. All we need is Stephanie to chime in with some horrific news from her side of the fence, and the old gang will be back together again. This summer sucks!
My aunt and I are typing up all of her handwritten recipes. She has files full of notes. I found her recipe for camp stew...I'm tucking that puppy away. :-D |
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 2:36:16 PM CDT
OMG! I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. My paternal grandma had alzheimers it was so hard to see her continually get worst so my prayers are with you and your family. I hope 50mil aunt is not too I'll. I know it's hard but make sure you take some time to yourself. You be able to help anyone if you make yourself sick.
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said this on 09 Jul 2011 7:21:37 AM CDT
50’s aunt isn’t well but she’s stable enough to move. We’re encouraging her to move south for the summer to be closer to us. The flying back and forth is killing us and putting pressure on Momma Ames to stay in Newport. Auntie has two live-in nurses, a cook, and a housekeeper but there is no substitution for having family around.
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 4:11:37 PM CDT
Well I hope you doing okay. I'm sorry about your grandmother, that must not be easy but you'll be happy you spent the time with her. Summer is catching everybody off guard I think, you think it's gonna be smooth sailing then the monsoon hits isn't this what winter is for.
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said this on 09 Jul 2011 7:09:16 AM CDT
I’m very fortunate that I’m able to spend this time with my Grandma. There are many who don’t fair as well. And yes, this summer has blindsided everyone!
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 6:19:17 PM CDT
Hello Tracy. I sorry to hear about your grandmother. I read your post this morning it made me cry. I'm going through a lot right now with Lail's deployment and your post made me realize that our struggles are not always about us. You are a gem. I lost my grand parents on both sides when i was still in my teens and young adulthood. I hope your time with your grandmother and other family is going well inspite of the circumstances that brought you back home. Stay Strong. Stay cool while you're here. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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said this on 09 Jul 2011 7:01:35 AM CDT
Thanks Jenn. Our struggle isn’t solely about us; it touches everyone who loves us so to focus on our hurt is extremely selfish. Of course we must take care of ourselves but continually turning the focus back on one’s self is poor form—as if to discount what others are going through because, somehow, you’re more important than them.
Despite the circumstances, I’m really enjoying being home with my family. Girl, we’re nuts! This is a clear indicator of where my sense of humor comes from. |
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said this on 09 Jul 2011 7:26:36 AM CDT
I know. I'm taking care of myself so stop tapping your foot.
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said this on 06 Jul 2011 10:33:29 PM CDT
Sorry to hear about your grandmother. My great aunt was diagnosed with Alzheimer's a few months ago too. I definitely know what you mean, Tracy! Sometimes it's like things fall on our shoulders all at once. It's so easy to be stressed out. Get some rest and I hope all goes well with your loved ones!
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said this on 09 Jul 2011 6:39:15 AM CDT
Yes, things seem to come at you at once and it's easily overwhelms you. One day at a time.
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said this on 07 Jul 2011 10:06:17 AM CDT
Tracy many moons ago your husband read the following at the funeral of a friend's family member and it seems so appropriate for what you are going through right now
To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under the sun. A time to be born and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kill and a time to heal ... a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance ... a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to lose and a time to seek; a time to rend and a time to sew; a time to keep silent and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace. ecclesiastes 3:1-8 |
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said this on 09 Jul 2011 6:36:05 AM CDT
Judy, it’s very appropriate to what we’re going through. Logically speaking, I understand that what’s happening is a natural progression of time that we as humans have no means of control. Emotionally speaking, it sucks because I’m in no way prepared to let my Grandma go.
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said this on 15 Jul 2011 10:54:54 PM CDT
Bless you Tracy. My heart goes out to you.
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